If there’s anything / that still surprises me / it’s the fact joy too has weight.
March 15, 2022
sprawled over grass
made an endless planet
by nightfall. Our faces
lifted to the season’s end
were a cloister of moons.
I asked for a legend
about what glows
so we could fill our bellies
with something death
hasn’t yet touched.
To be moved
by what’s untouchable
means we are conduits for more
than flesh, fallibility.
To ready ourselves
for gentleness, then,
is to make a landscape
of desire, translate farewell
into the sum of all distances
measured by light.
Nothing’s as visceral
as the hard-won kiss
where we press our lips
to ghosts & inhale
until we are vessels for life
still unlived.
Genealogy creates room.
I only have my shadow
to bear—& even that is theory
in another throat.
We are both endangered
species, you & I,
but the weight
of your heart’s chambers
upon my breast
was a dream
no prayer could give us.
If there’s anything
that still surprises me
it’s the fact joy too has weight.
That at the end of all hurts
there lies another to climb out of
while wearing your own face.