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The Body in Constant Combat

easy to get cold out there in the desert at night. hard to maintain the skin sealed to the bones below, to the meat beneath against each blast & every impact.

By Andrea Abi-Karam

The following is an excerpt from Andrea Abi-Karam’s EXTRATRANSMISSION, published by Kelsey Street Press (April 2019).

Tonight, Wednesday, May 29 at 6:30 pm, come hear Andrea Abi-Karam read alongside Jennifer Camper, in conversation wtih Rami Karim at the Asian American Writers’ Workshop.

 

 


 

I  USED  TO  WORK  IN  A  LAB  WITH  RATS  FOR  A  LONG  TIME.  A
MEMORY  LAB.  WE  WERE  TRYING  TO  FIGURE  OUT  WHAT  PART
OF  THEIR  TINY  BRAINS  COULD  REMEMBER  HOW  TO  NAVIGATE
SPACE.  WHAT  TOLD  THEM  WHICH  WAY  TO  GO.

 

A  MODEL  FOR  HUMANS

A  MODEL  FOR  ‘CURING  ALZHEIMER’S’

A  MODEL  FOR  NAVIGATION

A  MODEL  FOR  HUMANLESS  NAVIGATION

 

 

A  MODEL  FOR  DRONES

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

I   QUIT   SHORTLY   AFTER   THE   LAB   GOT   FUNDING   FROM   THE
US                     DEPARTMENT                          OF                            DEFENSE.

 

 

 

 
 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

DID   U   KNOW   THAT   IF   YR   A   COMBAT   VETERAN   WITH   PTSD   U   CAN
GET   A NONPROFIT   THAT   IS   FUNDED   BY   THE   CIA   TO   GIVE   U   A
DOG?

 

 

 

 

 

I  WANT  A  DOG.

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

on the surface of the signature injury

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

on the surface

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

CIRCLE  ONE  OPTION  BELOW:
 
MILD
 
MODERATE
 
SEVERE

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

in the framework of it all the female body in combat reads differently                        computes                         differently glitches        differently      that       the        female        body       in combat is not a state of on opposed to off. it’s a state of always on. always watching. waiting for the moment of the signature injury—whatever it might be. it costs so much to maintain the body in constant combat. it must consume & consume & consume just to stay awake. before it burns it all away too fast. she gnaws at her own fingertips to stay alert, to stay awake, to stay warm. easy to get cold out there in the desert at night. hard to maintain the skin sealed to the bones below, to the meat beneath against each blast & every impact. the environment tries to pull it apart—make little entrances for itself—ports to communicate information back to the base, shuttle information back up the chain of command. ports to communicate information ports to channel energy into the surroundings—static shoots across the dry desert air. as if it’s not enough to just exist in constant combat command wants the full download the full extra-transmission she’s tried so hard to keep sewn strictly in. direct line to read each electric impulse each time a muscle moves. brace. unbrace. skin just a shell plastic sheeting to keep the muscle moist. a case for your new iphone X. release innermost secrets through your fingertips. eyes just a mirror, a high resolution scan of the surroundings. breaks in vision noted. breaks in brush noted.

 

 

 

 

 

lack of cover. noted. body just a case for desirable information until they get a new shipment in of those who must volunteer their own skin cases to protect the TV set stationed in your living room. to enter combat. to take orders. to take the fall. every body is consumable. every american body is consumable. there’s a whole country back home to manufacture more willing bodies for the volunteer based army. a country that sometimes agrees to relax its borders in ex- change for the combat ready body. for the soft skin that caves in from every bit of shrapnel. for the soft skull that splits on impact. for the soft brain that bounces back and forth inside the skull. for the soft brain that tears & swells. for the soft brain that after the tears & swells still turns the body back on. still serves. for the soft person who can’t remember.

 

 

 

 

 

 

on the assembly line to american nationalism

 

 

 

 

 

 

 
 

 

 

 

little clicks along the conveyor belt

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

As of 2017 375,230 US troops have sustained a traumatic brain injury (TBI).

 

TBIs are the signature injury of the war on terror. they are severe concussions where past memories are erased and daily memory continues to be difficult. yr in an armored vehicle somewhere in iraq or afghanistan.   on a desert road. not a lot of cover. and yr vehicle gets hit by a rocket propelled grenade or you drive over the tripwire for an improvised explosive device.

 

there is a blast.  you are thrown into the wall or the roof or the ground.  yr body hits the wall or the roof or the ground hard. with force. bones break. yr brain moves forward and back against the inside of yr skull like all those really sick drunk driving movies where no one survives that you have to watch in driver’s ed when yr 16. it’s like that. except you survive. the blast, get up & run. yr body survives but you now have to cope with becoming a new person.