To remember you / Looking back at me from many places.
December 6, 2022
Halfway to Chicago I wear headphones
to cover your voice. You are angry
at the steering wheel. I listen to Oprah explain
childhood pain and remember you once fell
three floors and almost died. You were seven years old?
Or nine. Your father did something to your mother,
your mother didn’t do what she should have done,
and now we do things to each other without
knowing why. Sometimes even when we know
why we don’t know how to stop. Or by the time
we stop we are halfway dropped and ready
to shatter. How we enclose each other and
call the silence love. At The Bean I look for
your reflection. To remember you
looking back at me from many places.
We return to the parked car, sit there—
two exquisite sculptures,
propped by a feeling
that rupture, even though we don’t
know why, is arriving to happen to us.