The sun sieves through the canopy— / rivers are relenting. My soul seats itself // for the first time. Where it is quiet, it becomes cold. / There is nothing I must do but die— // what joy to let go of all things—what ease to give up.
February 28, 2017
THE FOREST
When I wander into the forest for a wash,
I hear the noise required to find silence.
The sun sieves through the canopy—
rivers are relenting. My soul seats itself
for the first time. Where it is quiet, it becomes cold.
There is nothing I must do but die—
what joy to let go of all things—what ease to give up.
When you ask me the question your life was born
to answer, I point to the sky we depend on—
for its blue face to turn when you turn into silence.
THE PIGEON
Led by a soldier at four o’clock in the morning,
we rode a train that stopped at a military tent.
Twenty soldiers back from the battlefield, drunk with knives, entered my tent.
I was eighteen when I lost my womb.
The smaller girls cried, Mommy, it hurts!
After the medics left us,
the wounded soldiers needed morphine.
They grabbed my clothes, and cried, Sister, please give me a shot!
I was sorry for them.
I injected their bodies and they fell asleep.
Before they died, the soldiers said,
My wife, my mother, let’s meet again at that shrine.
After the war ended,
I visited the famous shrine but there was nothing, only white pigeons.
MADRONA
You are a bouquet of roses, astonished to see me.
You turn your face away—towards modesty.
You could say, Stop writing poems about me.
But, you leave twice, something that rises slowly.
If I can own anyone I ask for none
unlike orchids that cannot grow unless paired.
Orchids choose to be plural. What to be told—
I don’t know. I remember you loved to swim.
I have come to find everything I am as water.
My eyes become lakes and lakes somewhere gather.
The sun jumps into the gorge. God knows best.
Grief washes through me, this over-calm.