i am re-writing / his life. no debts. no fights.
May 2, 2023
the report is not printed yet.
there is no need for ultrasound.
baba is not diagnosed with cancer.
his hair is uncut. i am re-writing
his life. no debts. no fights.
the hands of the clock run backwards.
he doesn’t grow up in a house
made of sacrifices. he wears the winter
slippers i bought for him. this time there is love.
i am home for maghe sankranti and i am not
on my period. this time i make ladoos.
sticky hands and the smell of teel.
hajurama doesn’t say we need to follow
the puraan. aama doesn’t say i should be
in law school because i don’t argue.
baba’s sons unwrite the letters
in their school.
the letters are not neatly arranged
in baba’s files. he un-meets hajurama.
he sees without glasses.
he is sixteen years old.
he is riding a white horse.
his skin is unwrinkled.
his birth is no more an accident.